ShoryukenShah && his quest.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Hello to everyone. I am going of to jakarta in 2 days time. I just wanna say I'll miss you all truckloads for two weeks. So, I got myself a phone replacement. Not exactly what I wanted but it should do the job well since I just need it to message,call & listen to songs. Camwhore is a bit on the shortage. Oh yeah, I've fallen sick today thanks to the dusty room : (
Having flu & fever but I don't give a damn about it . Just ate my medicines just now & I feel that there's no effect kicking in. So yeah. GOSH!

Tomorrow, Danny's gonna come back to Singapore. LIKE YIPPE!!! I'll be fetching him right after I watch Singapore Idol. So see ya there DAN! :D

Life so far, lets say its been sucky as usual. Though what I've gone through is not of my heart's content, I have to be patient & wait for the moment to rise up again & be at the top of my game. Only god will tell.

Until then, goodbye people

ShoryukenSHAH!

ShoryukenSHAH
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--5:30 PM

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

OH MY GOD MY CELL/HANDPHONE IS SPOILT!!
THANKS TO YOU!!!

Haish... All my contacts gone & I've got to keep on because Sezairi's mom's going to text me whether I will get the tickets or not. The worst part is, how am I going to tell my friends whether I get the tickets or not. GOSHHH!!!!! This SUCKS pretty much. Oh wells, what's done is done. Now I'm really stoned on what to do with that phone. ARGHHH BUGGERR!!!!! This is like the 2nd ever in my life where my phone was good as per normal & suddenly. POOOFF!!!~~
ITS SPOILT!!
Oh goddd.... :(
Epically, angry & FRUSTRATED in epic proportions. I'll lost my contact's number & all. OH GOSHH!!!GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! Have to like, hunt down their numbers one by one again. BUGGER IT!. SERIOUSLY!!!! I need a new phone ASAP!. I hope mom & dad are kind enough to replace it .. *crosses fingers*
If not, I need to have a plan B which includes.

DOES ANY ONE OF YOU HAVE A SPARE PHONE TO LEND TO THIS HUMBLE BOY???

LIKE OMG :( This sucks... K i GTG.
bye bye ....

ShoryukenSHAH!

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--4:39 PM

Saturday, November 21, 2009

BOHOO!!! SUCKISH MUCH!!!
too much to tell to curse around.
go go fish fish go go die die.
what a random post.
my head goes bonkers.
it seems to me that $$ is going to be few.
gosh gosh gosh.... go fish.
FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH!
WHAT THE FISH!
BLOODY FISH!
GODDAMN FISH!
HOLY FISHING FISH!
SO BLOODY FISH!
FISH ! FISH ! FISH!
HOLYFISH!
WHA THE FISH!
GO DIE FISH!
FISH OFF!
EFFING FISH!
: (
a caucasian dude purposely bumped on me today.

caucasian guy: Hey sonny, Don't push me!
me: F$%K YOU!!
caucasian's wife: Hey that's rude!
me: Tell that to your husband!

kk. that happened in around 9am in the morning.
My guess is that, he's american.
Europeans would never say 'sonny'.
so yeah!
whoever you are caucasian dude.
EFF YOU!
hehe.
GO DIE A$%HOLE!

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--1:07 PM

Friday, November 20, 2009

Okay ! HI!!!!! Two days ago, I went to Singapore Idol as usual . We were like one of the first few to reach that place. OH YEAHHH!!! It was raining cats and dogs outside the mediacorp centre. Me & Shereen shared an umbrella. THANK YOU SHEREEN!! :D

Apart from that, while going into the studio, many people rushed in the small door. People jumping queue & it was really frustrating. A woman suddenly jolted out screaming & dissing at those people who jumped their queues.At an instant, the noisy atmosphere became dead quiet. Although many people viewed that woman as unorthodox & mad, I think she had point. Why do we queue up? It is because we want to be there as fast & as orderly as possible.

Ok so here it goes. All the performance were amazing. Sezairi is always captivatingly cool. Sylvia's sexy awesome. Charles's atmospherically mesmerizing, Tabitha's hot as usual. All were great except Faizal Isa. I noticed that he was over confident at bringing his song & that he had been repeating what he does every week which I think proves a disadvantage for him.

Each of the contestants made an effort to improve themselves regardless of any obstacles but Faizal, I say no improvement at all. His singing was flat. There were now bassy lows or pitch perfect highs. All there is was just a normal singing voice that you can easily find among other people. Thank god the people of Singapore woke up & decided to vote against him. Like come on guys. Faizal is hot to girls & all but to us men, we think that he's just a male version of a bimbotic whore. No offence. This is the truth. Upon hearing him out. There were cheers of joy & tears of dissappointment. Shouts ranging from , " WTF!" to "HAHAHA!" were heard roaring across the studio.

As usual, most of the girls who supported Faizal cried. In that peak situation, I comforted them and stuffs.So yeah, that was wendesday. Stay tuned for more . Until then. GOODBYE! :D

ShoryukenSHAH!

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--12:53 AM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

FORGIVE & FORGET - MISS MAY I
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Wanted for my time spent searching for the world
I receive all i ever dream for, in return all is taken away
I remember everything before tonight
These illusions that life is so clear have been cleansed for my thoughts
Floating branches are the only things truly connected to the ground

TAKE ME BACK TO HOW I USED TO BE
I'LL NEVER CLOSE MY EYES AGAIN
HOW COULD I EVER FORGET A PLACE LIKE THIS?
SOMEWHERE THAT I CAN CALL MY OWN.
MY EYES WILL ONLY SEE,
WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO SEE.

Take me back to how I used to be
I'll never close my eyes again
How could I ever forget a place like this?
Somewhere that I can call my own.
This is satisfaction in its most beautiful state,
beautiful state.
Surrounding me is everything that is true,
just let this be true, let this be

I wont forget this place
I wont forget, this is my own
I wont forget, open my eyes
I wont forget

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When I cam upon this song, I thought it was just another metalcore song.
With harsh rough vocals & blazing power chords of the guitars.
Behind all that noise, there's a meaning to it.
That's what makes this song special to me.
The lyrics relates to me.

Just a simple post for now. I'll be back when I'm in my mood.
Until then, good bye.

ShoryukenSHAH!

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--11:35 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

This days, were'nt as intense as last week. I had somehow recuperated bit by glorious bit in an effort to make myself feel happier. I've had my brush with total loss and I lived to tell about it.
However, behind all this dark spaces. There is a glimpse of happiness in it. This few weeks, I've engaged myself into going to the mediacorp broadcasting centre to watch the Singapore Idol. I must say, I've felt rather happy during this times. Apart from that, the barbeque , the outings etc made me feel rather elated. The reason why I become so hyper everytime I meet up with my friends is because, I want to cherish every single second of it. To enjoy it to the fullest. I don't care what other people say. They call me crazy, stupid etc. I don't care. As long as I am happy, I will show my widest smile to all. Apart from that, my love life have been long gone. Now, I believe that it is time for me to resume it again. To get myself happy. For those of you who already have a love life, I recon that you cherish every single moment with your partner because events in the future are unpredictable. Love them for who they are. Love them for their prefects & defects.

On a side note, I want to say RAWR! because I feel like it. Feeling kind of hyped up about the ESCAPADE which is to be held in Singapore Polytechnic this Saturday night till Sunday morning. Finally a break from events at home. Oh & erm, I'm going to puncak in bandung which is in Indonesia on the 3rd of December. A holiday that I've been waiting for a long long long time . I'll be back on the 16th of December. I'm going to enjoy myself I suppose.
So ....
that's it then. Tata readers : )

ShoryukenSHAH!

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--8:22 PM

Friday, November 6, 2009

Sunday, 8 November, 2009

Oh how I yearn to silence the careless whispers in my vulnerable paper heart.
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It has been almost a week since I've slept in a place called home. For many of you, home is where you have your freedom to do anything and everything without eyes on you. It is where you do a simple task like , enjoying the latest series of heroes on the television or , preparing your breakfast cereals in your own kitchen. This little things that people take for granted is what makes life sometimes special.

Monday, 9 November, 2009

I am now back 'home' , in the room. It's 7.35 am. Back from my aunt's . Somehow, I feel uneasy sleeping there. My thoughts lingers about. While she's scolding my cousin for coming back home late, I just went into his room & just sit there on his bed, stoned. Got a phone call from mom today early in the morn. I decided to go back after much thought & consideration. In this one week away from home, I have learnt a lot. What I learned, I won't elaborate. For you guys who have felt what it's like, you should know. The sense of peace that envelopes your mind and the little spec of emptyness at the back of it all. It is due to that , that I came back home. Although I HATE my mother's attitude, she's still my mother. Without her, I won't be here.
As I'm typing now, she has been bombarding me tonnes of words, hurtful words. I just kept quiet & continue typing this blog post. She has been nagging & giving me a lecture since 7.02 am. Now's 7.42 am & her stamina's still strong. Still talking. I suppose that's what mothers do when they're hurt.

I just plugged in my ear piece into my lappie & then to my ears, & blast music. It's better than hearing what she have to say & getting both ourselves angry which means unnecessary sacrifices. No more sleep overs at friends' or cousins' . I suppose that's what she does in an effort to not lose me. I just accept it. In the near future, I am bound to make my own rules for my own life. At the moment, mom's overly exhumed by her emotions. Switching of the iron, banging it. Opened the cabinet cupboard, took a towel & banged it shut.

I just watched her. It is not that I was unable to say anything. I was just too lazy to reprimand.
Let it be. Whatever she wants to be. I'll be away after my O levels. I'm going to stay with dad for the mean time after my Os. Get myself in shape. Oh how I yearn for this suffering to end. It has taken its toll on me, on my life. Last night, I got kicked out of the house just because I went out & have some fun quality time with my dad because it has been months since we go out. Due to that, I was out.

To abang Khairul,
I'm sorry that your mom scolded you for coming back home late because of me. Anyway, thank's for being there for me when I needed you the most. Tell your mother that I'm sorry for this to happen. I don't have the intention to cause a conflict between both of you. Say to her that I am sorry & that it is my fault . Well, it's my fault anyway. Once again, I apologise.

Not to self,
I'd rather bring my tent & sleep under the beautiful open sky. It seems that everywhere I go, people keep hating on me. Am I bad? NO. Am I evil? NO Am I defiant? well sort of, but come on, everyone have their days. Am I an ungrateful child? in some ways I am but in MOST ways, I am not. Do you love your mother? Hell yeah I do. She's my everything but, she have to change her crappy attitude towards people. Do you sacrifice for your mother? Loads of time. A lot. Since the time when it was in court, until the day she wants to remarry again. I'm always there for her. It's just that she could'nt see me.
NOTE ENDS HERE

Of all the reasons that I post this blog post, I want to tell you just a few, the important ones.
I want all of you to know tha without your mother, you will never arrive to a place which is called planet Earth. You will never grow into what you are today. Without your mother, your life will lie in ruins. Without your mother, you will not have anyone to turn to in times of need.
No matter how bad a mother is, we still have to love them. I do not hate my mother. Hatred is something that Allah despises.

After this one week, I have a clearer mindset of what is life. I'm still dented due to the trauma that has be fallen me last week. I can't do anything. All I can do now is just to pray. Pray to Allah that all of this would be better. Insyallah in time, we will live in a house of our own again.
It still saddens me though. To lose everything all at once & fast. If I got a life sized doll right now, I'd hug it & cry. Well in literal terms, you know what I mean. I need a long hug. I need someone to comfort me. I hope allah brings be that right person. With this, I end my blogpost with a qoute from a song by Lisa Miskovsky, Still Alive.

" ou have changed
I have changed
Just like you
Just like you

For how long
For how long
Must I wait
I know there's something wrong

Your concrete heart isn't beating
And you tried to
Make it come alive

No shadows
Just red lights
Now I'm here to rescue you "

Still Alive - Lisa Miskovsky.

With that, I end my post.

With a sorrowful heart,
shoryukenshah

ShoryukenSHAH
was here @
--11:16 PM